(Russellville, Ohio, US)
I am 16 years old and I am adopted and everyone thinks I am going to have a baby but I do have great adoptive parents, I still can't help but think about the facts of my past!
Like when I was born I weighed 3 pounds... I weighed 3 pounds until I was like 1! My mom did cocaine when she was pregnant with me and my twin sister. I became the really hyper one (I have ADHD) and my twin sister Carol was slowed down. She has to think alot harder.
Then when I was 6 weeks old I was coming off the coke and my dad got mad at me for not quite crying so he threw me across the room and I bounced off the couch and hit the coffee table! So I had 2 broken legs, and 2 broken arms, and 2 broken ribs 2 6 weeks and 3 pounds.
I am going to Adams County Christian School. I really do like it there but I just feel like people single me out. I really hate that feeling! I recently had a BAD break up with the sweetest guy in the world who was going to be the daddy of my baby.(i was going to have a baby)
When we broke up I quit with life... everything went down the drain. I no longer want to live life....or I don't think I can...It feels like I cant. I really love him, I am spending my time playing sports and hurting myself while doing it. I am trying to get over him but it is not working.The harder I try to forget him the more I get depressed which is good for no one.
I shut everyone out of my life. I am a junior and wanting to just quite and like die, but something keeps stopping me from doing something really stupid.
Well he said he would have stayed with me. But when i lost it I lost him to. My mom thought I just was not at all but I was then I lost it because I got into a fight and got hit too hard. Now i want to blame everyone else for anything that goes wrong in my life.
I have been saved but I have STRAYED away and I am afraid to go back to that! Now a couple of my grades are slipping and I do not want them to go down... because if they do then I will not be able to play sports then I will spend more time thinking about how my life sucks.