by Megan
(Louisiana)
When you pass me in the halls.When you see me at the mall.Do i seem happy? yes.a simple answer.its whats on the outside that counts.its whats been drilled into me ever since i was little.parents, mainly mom, telling me i should do this and that.why cant you be more like her.ugh! ur acting like him/her.every word kills me.u may not realize it,but it does.i hate not being able to do what i want or dress like i want.im the type of girl that everyone sees as the popular teachers kid thats got it all.but reall im just some cuttin,depression,loves black and likes weird things type of girl that want to get out of this small town.im the type of girl thats in love with her best friend but knows she cant have him.im the type of girl who falls for the outcast of the class and if you even think about dating him u get criticized..well the summer before i turned 13 is when thing really started gettin bad between my mom and i.i came to absolutely hate her and i still do.she wants me to be perfect in every way because she says i have the potential....thats when i started to cut.it made me feel happy when i was sad.it let me be able to express my anger.i quickly became addicted.last year my 7th grade year it started getting better.i was happier that is until something bad happened at school that sent me into a relapse.now even today i sit in my room and soak in my depression.im like a hermit.i dont like people.ok i might like some but thats not thw point..the point is ive turned myself into a outcast.And i like it.and im proud.now if only i had the guts to tell a certain someone how i feel... :(
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