Hey, im Star. Im 14, and ive been cutting off and on for two years. When im around other girls, always feel so ugly, intimidated, and like im never going to reach that kind of 'pretty'. All my friends say i am, but i honestly have never saw a pretty girl looking back at me in the mirror. Not on the outside or inside. To my friends, im this cute, fun, bubbly girl that has not a problem in the world, but they have no clue. I hate having to pretend to be happy when im not, every single fricken day. I dont think the personality they see is 'fake', because thats who i was before, and thats who i want to be again, but im just not that right now. Also, i feel worthless in my parents eyes. I dont necesarily get abused; I mean, i was thrown against a door when i was eight, because my step dad has anger problems, and ive have my nose twisted around and been slapped across the face a few times,but i dont consider that as serious abuse because there are millions of kids out there that get severely abused every day. But the most abuse is emotionally. I'll be having a conversation with my mom, and all of a sudden she'll get mad at me. So of course living with that, the tension builds up and i cry. Then she'll think of somthing else to say, and come in my room and start screaming in my face. I try to stop crying, but i just end up crying more until she leaves and i fall asleep. Then i usually wake up in the middle of the night to text this guy im absolutley in love with, so i can have someone to turn to, because he always
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