whats wrong with me?

by Samanthya
(ny)

my name is samanthya and im a normal averge teenager. i never really thought being a teenager was this hard, i mean with boys and school and friends especially boys, but they never like me... im the only one out of all my friends who has never had a boyfriend/kissed a boy..well my friend janei hasnt either but she doesnt care about that kind of stuff. ive tried to have that attitude about boys but it never really worked out lol. but its just like im like an alien to boys and im soo confused about why they dont like me and it makes me believe that im ugly,fat, and basicly just a huge loser.ive also tried changing my style and my personalty but that just made things worst.like for example i used to like this boy named michael ever since the end of 5th grade and i during that time we would flirt with each other and stuff and i thought he liked me til the end of 6th when i told him that i liked him...well when i asked one of my friends to tell him that i liked him and he just shook his head and rolled his eyes thats when i started to realize that i was a fat ugly loser and so throughout the 7th and 8th grade i would do lots of things to change how i look and if he would ever walk in the same hallway as him to find another route because he thought i was stalking him even though he knows that i have the same class as him and basically just to shorten this story i think he was one of the reasons why i have a really low self esteem. i guess my kindness is part of the reason why no one likes me cause im overly nice to people its really hard for me to be mean to someone [unless they like bother me or something...but i usually start crying, im kinda sensitive). Just to shorten up this whole story i just wanna ask if theres anything i can do to be much more liked by boys?

sincerly,
Samanthya

P.s
do u think theres anything wrong with me?