Through My Weakness
2nd Corinthians 12:9: "But He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness."
This verse is one of my favorites. It has been for a long time, but now it has a whole new meaning, it isn't just an encouragement or just gives hope, it is alive. I have lived this verse the past two years,having found how Jesus' perfect power is made through my imperfect weakness. I was going to make a career of being a hairstylist. After months of looking into it and searching for the right school with constant prayer, I felt that God was calling me toward this profession. To be a light to the women I worked with and to the clients I would serve, while also doing something I love. I was truly passionate about this new phase of my life and so excited! I worked hard at finding a school, which in time the Lord placed one right into my lap. I started beauty school with huge dreams, ready to work harder than I have ever worked before to become the best stylist I could possibly be. I went in with a mind set of "I can do anything", but God had a lesson to teach me. I have a mild case of CP and no muscle in my right leg. I get tired after long periods of standing and I walk with a limp. I've never let my physical weakness get in the way of anything I've wanted to accomplish. I was in school for two weeks, I could start feeling myself
breaking down. I was still determined to win or go down fighting. I worked hard and tried my best, but in the end I knew that I had to quit. I couldn't live in unbearable pain the rest of my life and standing all day just wasn't an option, it was the hardest thing I have ever done. I came to the verse in 2nd Corinthians at the opportune time. I quit beauty school and got my job back, I truly mourned the loss of my dream, but I had a peace I chose the right thing. At the time I didn't understand why God would lay such a strong desire in me and than not let me use it. I finally understand now, I never believed I was weak, but Jesus knew. He showed me my weakness, but He also gave me His grace to rely completely on Him. One of my most cherished friends told me that sometimes God doesn't bring you to the destination, He just shows you the path. I believe that is true. I think that what I went through was just the path, a stepping stone in my life to teach me, to mold me. I will never regret trying to go for my dream and I will never regret giving it to the Lord. If you think you have it figured out you better think again. We will never have it all figured out, but we don't have to because we worship a God who does. So don't lose heart, reach for your dreams, and through your weakness He will make you strong.