The Blades Haven - Teenage Cutting

by Kaitlyn
(Pennsylvania)

My name is Kaitlyn and I started cutting at the age of 12. My home is not a pleasant one to live in. My father is an alcoholic and my mother is ignorant of this fact. I have seen horrible things in my life.

When my friend told me about cutting, I was nervous. I thought it was gross and weird. Why would someone cut themselves on purpose? I said I wouldn't think about it, but later that night,
I decided to try it out. Dad was drunk and yelling, beating on my door. He and I were alone. I opened the door to my father grabbing my arm. He pulled me in his room and raped me again. I hate him with so much passion it hurts to talk about him. I started cutting that night. It felt sooooo good. Soon I was hooked. I loved cutting, even now I do. It's horrible to say, I know.

But if I could rewind time, I wouldn't have started it. I know am addicted to cutting, weed, and I am no longer a virgin(by choice). I feel like this is all due to my starting to cut. If your struggling, don't turn to the blade. I love cutting, but I hate it's effects.

I hope my story is printed here because it's important for every teen to know how much cutting can effect you. I don't believe in everything said about cutting. I do not believe cutting means your crying out for help. It's not always like that. I was never advertising that I needed help. I don't. But if you think you need help, get it now, before it's too late.

If you ever want to talk to me, submit a comment here.