morning of tears

by sam
(usa)

on Thursday morning (7/21/11) i thought about committing suicide b/c all morning i was bashing myself b/c i cut myself. the only reason i didn't is b/c i didn't want my family to deal with that pain and i kept seeing my friend Becca's face every time i blinked. i could have ended it right there but instead of committing suicide, i cried b/c i couldn't do that to my friends and family. i want help so bad but that would include telling my parents that i cut, and i can't do that. the weirdest thing is no matter how bad i want to commit suicide i picture my friend Becca, she threatened to tell my mom but i begged her not to. i am so ashamed of myself for cutting but never enough to stop b/c it became an addiction. i want help but i cant my family would fall apart. it would be so much easier just to commit suicide but i just cant.....

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Please Call
by: S'ambrosia

Sam, please call 1-800-SUICIDE and check out the article on teen suicide on this site https://www.teen-beauty-tips.com/teen-suicide-help.html. Help is available if you're willing to reach out for it, and judging from the fact that you came to this website, I think you are.

Try giving them a call. You don't have anything to lose by talking to someone, right?

I'm praying for you, that you would let God past the fence around your heart so that He can bring you some much needed peace and healing. He truly is the ULTIMATE answer to every problem we have, so I pray that you come to know Him through all of this. Much love and many prayers.

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