It never ends.

by Sarah

Before I was diagnosed with anorexia, i was perfect weight. I never needed to lose anything at all. I had friends, talent, everything... But I saw media; skinny models and underweight celebrities. and I saw all my friends eat and stay skinny as they were. And my depression was overwhelming me. So I decided that I wanted to disappear. I just wanted to fade away. And that's what I did. I starved and starved until I saw myself disappear. But once it starts it doesnt go away. It DOESNT GO AWAY. it never ends. You start to see your bones as beautiful and your EVERYTHING ELSE as FAT. and it hurts. it hurts every day. No matter what, I find comfort in starving. On days I'm forced to eat, I comfort myself by thinking about the next day and forming a plan to not eat anything. It has taken over my life. It will continue to. Until I will disappear. And when I die, I hope to be burned. And I hope for my ashes to be scattered off a high peak somewhere, into a vast ocean. Why? So that I can finally disappear.

I'm 13 years old.

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The Lord Jesus Christ Cares
by: Antelop 7

I know you think and feel like no one loves you right now, but God Loves you and this is what He said in Jeremiah 31:3 “[3] Long ago the Lord said to Israel: "I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself
I want you to know that the Father Loves you so much and accepts you even now that you are going through this tough time. The Lord Jesus Christ alone can set you free and give you the Power to gain control over all your fears.
Do you want to know the plan God has for you? Prosperity.
The plan of God for you is for you to prosper, His plan is not to harm you, but for you to have an expected end.{Jeremaih 29:11}

Do you want to know how God thinks about you?
He loves you.{John 3:16} For God so love you, that His only begotten Son Jesus christ, if you belive in your heart that Jesus is the son of God sent forth by God Himself to be the propitiation for all your sins, through faith in Jesus blood when He died on the cross of calvary, Then you shall not persih but have everlasting life. For God sent Jesus Christ into the world for you not to condemn you, but that through Jesus Christ You might be saved from the wrath of God against the Judgement day of God{ Romans 3:25}

Do you want to know the purpose of God for you? Salvation.
God purpose for you is that you be saved. God wants to save you by offering to recive the Lord Jesus christ who is the Way, Truth, and Life. The Lord Jesus has already lived the perfect life god wants from you, so all you have to do is receive Jesus, who did all the work for you. Jesus is already the only acceptable sacrifice to God.

Do you also want to know what the barrier between you and God is? Sin{ Romans
2:23;6:23} For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
But I know you will like to know the good news, and what the Lord has done for you. The Lord Jesus Has died for all your sins, and has the power to forgive you alll your sins before God you have committed.
Now I know the Lord is leading you to receive Him as your personal Lord and Savior. All you have to do is talk to the Lord. Tell God that you agree with Him, and that you have sinned . Then ask God to forgive you for all your sins, and thank Him for sending His Son to die for your sins on the Cross. Ask the Lord Jesus to come into to life and heart, to become your Lord and Savior, and conform you into the Image and likeness of God in Jesus name.

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