I'm fourteen, suffering the worst year of my life. I'm extremely suicidal and i wouldn't wish my pain onto anybody on this earth i hurt so bad. Nothing's getting better. High school has been awful from the second week. I liked this boy, we dated. I went over to his house. And he tryed to rape me. He fingered me, after i told him not to and i had no clue what to do. I was terrifed and shaked up and told my mom's friend who i was really close to and she made me tell my parents. When i did, they were mad at me for going over there.. when they drove me. Then a little less than a month later my geometry teacher beat me with a belt 24 times. Really hard. Nobody belived me, although he's in jail and found guilty. So now i have absoulty no friends and the one i did... always gets high and we rarely talk anymore. That destroyed my life. I was in shock for month's, now that i came out of it. I cut myself. I tryed to strangle myself three times within the past 24 hours. i just want to die. But not burn in Hell. I love God. I wish i knew he'd take me to Heaven if i killed myself. Because i can't take it anymore. Im at the end of the rope, beside the tree where my body's going to be hanging one day. i dont know what to do. and my heart honestly and actually aches. I cry for hours. Sometimes days. I cant take anything. Help me please.
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