Im alone in a cold world.
"I wish I could be a flower, just so someone would step on me."
this is a facebook status i wrote once.
i was having a bad day and in other words, i wanted to die.
i feel like im in a cold world where no one cares.
i have tried to explain how i feel and no one understands.
sometimes i wonder if even i myself understand.
i have found a poem on this website called "My Silent Thoughts"
it described exactly what i felt! i couldnt believe it.
here all this time im thinking no one understands, that im all alone and this guy knows exactly what i feel.
I dont know what i feel, what i think, or what i believe.
i dont know who i am.
i used to know who i am and who i wanted to be.
and ive bn thinking that i want to be who Christ made me to be.
but ever since i decided that i feel liike all memory has been washed out of my mind.
literally, WASHED OUT.
my mind is so confused and clouded.
i dont know who i am or what i am and i need some serious help.
i decided God was the only answer and He was the only one who could help me.
I then realized, after listening to a sermon; God works THROUGH people!
I opened up to a couple of friends of mine and i have felt much better ever since.
I learned that keeping my feelings inside is one way the devil is trying to get to me.
that those thought kept deep inside you, the devil will turn against you and make you think WRONG!
that you should NEVER keep things bottled up inside.
Im still working on opening up to poeple i trust. YES, even people i TRUST.
im a teenager and in highschool and im so confused.
i have bn writing down bible verses and i read whole chapters.
like, i found 2 corinthians 5:17, i plan on reading the
WHOLE chapter instead of just that one verse.
i have like 3 or 4 pages full of verses that i plan on looking up.
(i highlight stuff in my bible too)
and i have decided to stay off my facebook for the rest of the wk to do just that.
even if it means not talking to my bf.
God comes first in my life, and if my bf truly loves me he will understand and be patient with me while im on this journey.
someone please find that poem and then comment on here and PLEASE help me...? PLEASE...?