I want to be reborn!!

by Confused Girl
(California)

ok heyy! im 14 and a girl. I have self harmed and its covering my arms. my mom found out and then she was super mean. then later she was like u prob copied sum1 then i realised i did----nother story. then i wanted my scars 2 go away bcuz i hated them....i was stupid. so i am using merderma--scar cream and i prayed to god to take it away. i pray and i say forgive me. since we cant go 2 church---no car. i use holy oil. when we commune at home we drink cranberry juice and bread and we say a prayer and i get a lot so tht i culd b pure. i read the bible. i just want them gone soon bcuz it is torture. also bcuz if i were to wake up and show my mom that the scars is gone she wuld die of happiness. i culd wear regular clothes. i culd go 2 ppl houses--i kant bcuz of the scars----i culd b happy again. my mum says there going away but i just want them gone like i wake up 1 day an there gone. God does these miracles 4 my mum but not 4 me!!! idk y?? i just wat 2 b reborn but i cant till the scars r gone!!! please help me and ppray 4 me!!! i need all the help i culd get