I just knew I wouldnt get hurt.

by Alexis
(Alabama)

I never understood the importance of waiting until after i had sex. i was no where near ready. i had my first really serious relationship when i was 15. the guy i was dating was older than me. he was 18. i had been told my whole life, "wait for marriage," and i had planned on it. i had the true love waits ring and everything. in the past i had told many guys no to sex. but shawn was different. we dated for about 7 months. 6 months into our relationship, i gave into to him and i had sex with him. i cried for hours afterwards because i knew i had made a horrible mistake. two weeks after we had sex, he broke up with me. i was heartbroken. not long after that, he started dating a new girl. i just didnt know what i was going to do. a few weeks after that, i began to notice that i was about a month and a half late. i told myself there was no way i could be pregnant, we used a condom. but i was sadly wrong. a few days later i found out i was 5 weeks pregnant, i cried and i cried. i knew this was going to change my entire life. about a week after i found out i was pregnant, i lost the baby. they said my body just wasnt mature enough for a baby. i went through all of this without shawn. and still to this day, seeing him hurts. but i know now, to guard my heart and to stay pure til marriage.