I just knew I wouldnt get hurt.

by Alexis

I never understood the importance of waiting until after i had sex. i was no where near ready. i had my first really serious relationship when i was 15. the guy i was dating was older than me. he was 18. i had been told my whole life, "wait for marriage," and i had planned on it. i had the true love waits ring and everything. in the past i had told many guys no to sex. but shawn was different. we dated for about 7 months. 6 months into our relationship, i gave into to him and i had sex with him. i cried for hours afterwards because i knew i had made a horrible mistake. two weeks after we had sex, he broke up with me. i was heartbroken. not long after that, he started dating a new girl. i just didnt know what i was going to do. a few weeks after that, i began to notice that i was about a month and a half late. i told myself there was no way i could be pregnant, we used a condom. but i was sadly wrong. a few days later i found out i was 5 weeks pregnant, i cried and i cried. i knew this was going to change my entire life. about a week after i found out i was pregnant, i lost the baby. they said my body just wasnt mature enough for a baby. i went through all of this without shawn. and still to this day, seeing him hurts. but i know now, to guard my heart and to stay pure til marriage.

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Glory to glory
by: S'ambrosia

As I was reading your story, I could feel your pain. I haven't been in your shoes, but I know the sorrow of regrets and the pain of loss. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss you experienced in your life. The lesson you learned was a really hard one, but you did an awesome thing by posting your story here for other girls to learn from. Keep your eyes open for more ways God wants to use your testimony to minister to others in the future. It wasn't all in vain and as long as you continue to keep your gaze fixed on God, He'll work it all out for good.

God can heal all hurts
by: Anonymous

I am married with 5 children and I have lost four in miscarriage. Fortunately, I was with my husband through the ups and the downs...something you still have to look forward to.
I guess, because I've lost babies...that is what I am addressing...you can pray to God to let you know the sex of your baby. You will get some sense...
We had two sets of twins...a boy and a girl and then two girls. We named our babies...you can name yours. We have a place in our house and in the garden that is a memorial. Planting a tree or flowers or a little statue are great ways to remember - because try as you might, you certainly won't forget. God can provide the Grace to deal with the losses...of your lost relationship and your lost baby. Pray for your spouse...God will bring someone special to you. And you'll know, because he'll be willing to wait for you...and even better, he may also want you to wait for him! I prayed for my husband and God answered my prayers. We waited for each other.
Just because you were with someone once does not mean that you won't be able to wait...pray and God will give you the Grace. I kept visualizing that I wanted my first night to be my wedding night. Having that dream firmly in my head, I wasn't able to stand for anything less. God forgives our mistakes. That is the biggest hurdle is to Trust that He does forgive you and that your sorrow will turn to Joy with God's Grace.
God Bless!!

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