I didn't know how bad I had messed up.

I have been a christian all my life and have been a firm believer in waiting till marriage to have sex. But a couple of years ago I started doing some form of masturbation and at the time I did not realize it. It felt good so I would do it almost everytime I got into the shower. And overtime I started feeling bad about doing it. God spoke to me with this feeling and told me it was wrong but I can't seem to stop. I have went almost 12 years with out a boyfriend because I didn't want to put myself in a predicament where I could lose my virginity. But I've went and have had guys try and be with me and I would give them a chance but the second they started pressuring sex into our "relationship" I would get rid of them. But about 5 months ago me and my boyfriend started dating and he knew from the begginning how I felt about having sex and has not pressured me to do anything, yet. But what I am trying to get at is that he went down on me when I last seen him (we have a long distance relationship), and I just feel awful after reading that article that after all these years of really thinking that I was a virgin that in God's eyes I'm not. I've asked for forgiveness countless times and I just don't know what to do....

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Receive Forgiveness
by: Anonymous

Once you have truly repented and reframed from the act, God forgives you. Just receive His forgiveness and reframe for fornication. 1 Corinthians 7:9 "But if they cannot contain, let them marry for it is better to marry than to burn." Therefore ask God to send you a husband, who has the reverance for God, pure conscience, faithful, rules the family, serves God, selfless, humility, loving, kind, honest, gentle and God filled unconditional love. If that be your prayer I will agree with you.

I totally get it
by: Anonymous

I'm in the same situation (exception: I don't and never have had a boyfriend). I'm trying to stop, but I haven't been able to. IDK what to do! Prayer helps, but it only lasts for a short time. I think the longest I've gone is 1 month. It's hard. I know I have been and will be forgiven, and so are you. Stay in the Lord, and remember you can't win this battle on your own. Let God fight for you and He will surely win. ;)

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