Him

by Jordan
(Indiana)

I pray I'll make it through the night.

I beg silently to be saved.
I don't want this.
But I deserve this.
I sit on my bed, ready and willing.
Waiting for him to take me over.
He tempts me with my once-pleasant memories.
The things I used to love now bring me hatred.
I drag the blade across my skin, watching in astonishment.
I don't cry.
I don't ask for help.
I know if I make a sound he will punish me more.
I've become a horrible, sick, obsessive monster.
The pain is so real, but this feels like a dream.
The nights grow longer, and seem to go on forever.
The pain grows with every tear.
The cuts grow deeper.
Why can't he just leave me alone?
He pushes me.
He begs me.
He breaks me.
He hurts me.
He takes me.
He makes me his.
The Devil Made Me Do It.

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i'm sooo sorry
by: cassandra

hey jordan..i feel your pain..i too cut myself, but there IS freedom is Jesus Christ..please know that..you dont have to cut yourself..i too believe the devil makes us cut..well, maybe not exactly makes us do it, but he's the one who puts the thoughts in our heads...i'm praying for you!!i'm praying that you find true peace in Christ and that you allow Him to help heal your hurts, to allow Him to help you walk in His freedom..freedom IS possible, but ONLY through Jesus Christ!i'm praying for you..just keep in mind the song "Shackles" by Mary Mary..that song has been SOOO encouraging to me through my battle of overcoming self-injury..i'm STILL not over it, but i am coming closer and closer to being over it, even if i do slip up, like i do so many times..
(=
by: Samantha

Hey Jordan. I just wanted to tell you that you can be free from your pain. God has made a way! For everyone! That includes you! I may not have been in your situation but ive definately had my share. But it doesnt matter what you have done. Or what you will do in the future. God gave us the name "Saints" It means Holy one-who sometimes sin(= The day that Jesus died on the cross, is the day everything was forgiven every lie. every cut. every tear. dissapeared.. Gone! He shed His Blood so you wouldnt have too.(=


HE loves you! Your the apple of His eye!
I promise God is with you! and your never alone!(=
you poor thing
by: Anonymous

sweetie i think you need some professional help,or at least some1 other than lucifer to talk too. theres a whole world out there its not so bad if you take things 1 at a time xx

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