Eternal Battle

by Kathleen
(Tucson, AZ)

I have struggled with depression. I still am but when lies are put into my head I stop whatever I am doing and pray. Only a couple months ago I realized how much God has in store for me. The depression started out with lies within my mind. Satan would put these thoughts of "everybody hates me, no one really cares about me, and i am stupid" the list goes on. The depression went to suicidal thoughts. I remember clearly one day after school I went to the kitchen and pulled a knife. I put that knife right against my stomach. I could feel the sharp end against my skin. But something within me couldn't go through with it. Looking back I know it was God who prevented me from taking my life. There are still times when I struggle but within those times is when I hold on to God. Life is full of lies. For the longest time I did not realize it was Satan who was putting the lies in my mind. I will forever have the scar of the depression and attempt of suicide with me. The best part of knowing God and accepting Him is that we are on the winning side of the eternal battle. My suggestion to those of you who are struggling with whatever is to find someone you can trust and talk to that person. Going through a battle by yourself wont end up good. Keeping everything inside will only destroy relationships and destroy you personally.

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God is working
by: Anonymous

When I was in my teens I felt re exact same way and it got so bad that I also strews having suicidal thoughts and I just remember having horrible thoughts and crying all the time and jut not wanting to live. I would plan on taking pills and pray to god that he would take my life, but I just couldn't go through with it. I released now that god stop me and I kno that he has great plans for my life and every time I think about his greatness for my life it makes me feel so good. Everyday gets a little easier and some days are bad but praying always makes me feel so much better and knowing god loves me and is working all the time. I will pray for you. And remember god loves u and is always working

by: Melody

I remember when I went through this. I was 12 when depression first hit me. I would cry all the time too about how fat I was or how ugly I was. Several years later, when I was 15, suicidal thoughts swirled around in my head. I cut my arm a couple of times to stop focusing on the pain in my heart. And I now know that it was only Satan. I heard on a tour I went to that "Your body is a temple of God. And that God has bigger plans for you than you can imagine." I also was going to take my pills and OD but like you all I just couldn't do it. I thought about the pain my family would go through. And my friends. I had to go into a hospital and let me tell you it has helped me a lot. I have been cut free for 11 months now. I thank God everyday for my life. God put us here for a reason and it wasnt just so we could end that reason. Sometimes you have to go through real pain to see real joy. I completely agree with you about not walking through this battle alone. God is with us every second of the day. There will be a time one day where we will feel no pain. Oh how happy I will be when that day comes.

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