cutting in anger

by hannah

My name is Hannah and here is my story and how i sort of delt with self harm. I do cut myself, I do it becuase I am always angry and its a cry for help, I would lay down on my bed, a blade was always next to me. I tried so hard to stop, But I could not. It was hard. It was even more harder knowing that my older sister and younger sister once went through cutting for attention. They make me angry. Know one knew what i did to my self until I reached high school. At first I was teased. Boy would see scars on my arms and make front of me and call me emo. I tried my hardest to ignore them. Then I met a frind, she also went through cutting. She help me through hard times, and thanks to her, I'm happy. I do still cut, but not that bad, not like it first was. I thanks her deeply. I used to go to a church to help me out to, with another friend, I was afraid to go on my own. I was cutting because of loss and anger. Other people never understood me. Thats how my life was. I was also teased befre that, it was what led up to cutting. I am not skinny, and I'm not the prettyest, I know that. But boys would tease me and I would get into fights. But like i said, that changed a while after I went to high school. But when I got home, mum and dad would yell at me for doing the simplyest mistakes. I was going to take itfor much longer, i wanted to run away. But my friend convinced me not to and she helped me all the way through. A year later, i still cut. But Like once.