alone..

by McKenzie
(sandiego CA )

hello, my name is mckenzie. and this is my story...it all really started in 5 grade & i was being bullyed and i started too feel isolated from my friends. in 6th grade things got worse for me, rumors where going around which didnt help me with the bullys. and in 7th my life was a nightmare. i hit myself. when i was going into 8th grade i convinced my mom too let me do homeschooling. thats when my cutting started, because now i wasent face too face with my bullys, i was on the internet. kids would call me scared and weak bc i wasent there too face the issues and things tht where said about me, i stopped talking too alot of my friends, and i began too be really lonely, cutting helped me have my release of pain. i finally opened up too my mom after i cut my self 15 times in one day. the pain was too hard too face alone. just writing this makes me upset because im still in the same place i was when i started. i feel like there is not hope. i feel like no matter wat, ill never b goodenough for my parents or anyone else. feeling the way i do is intense and painful. a few weeks ago, i wanted too commit suicide...i stopped myself. suicide is a permanit desicion for a temporary problem. iv come too relize that. thank you for reading my story.