A 7th Graders Thoughts...

by Syd
(Los Banos)

I think it's so unfair that all these girls on commercials are the most gorgeous girls. They make their hair all perfect and make them tan and make them thin with a shape. It makes us bigger girls feel so self-conscious. Why does everyone on t.v. have to be so flawless and thin? Why can't there be one show on with a chunky girl with zits? And not being teased on either? I feel so unwanted sometimes. Everyone around me is skinny and I feel so fat. I hate it. I hate these feelings. I think to myself everyday "Why couldn't I be that thin?" Or "Why couldn't I be that flawless?" Or "Why can't I have perfect skin?" and millions more like that. I sometimes feel like I just wanna run away and hide in a bag. I hate all the looks I get. I hate some boys looks they give too. But the good thing is I have a lot of girls that smile when they see me. Or they even want to hang. I even sometimes see some boys checking me out. This makes me feel so self-conscious it's ridiculous. I hate being fat. Everyone says i'm not then why can't I see all this? I just don't get it. When these boy's look at me I wanna run away. Just because I feel fat. I mean seriously have you seen some 8th graders? Most of them are skinny. I feel soooooooooooo fat. People say I'm beautiful but I don't see what they see in me. People say I lost a lot of weight. I don't see that. Is this a problem? I'm gonna attach a picture of me. It's the best I can find I think. Please (if you can) write me back. I need advice. I get it all the time from family members but I would like to get some from a beautiful woman to just tell me i'm beautiful. You don't have to though. Sorry if any of this is rude I was just venting. Thanks again so much