Luann 101 my body image story
by Luann
(Philippines)
I can definitely relate to Shelley if ever she's the one who has a story about acne and stuff. I'm suffering from acne and acne scars too...
My self esteem is crashing down right now. Too bad I'm going to college. I have built this thing on my head saying that if only these blemishes were gone then everything would be alright. It keeps haunting me night and day.
At first it didn't bother me but when my classmates started to tease me and then my maternal relatives started to humiliate me about it my world came crashing through. They like tease me even my 7 year old cousin.
I had depression too.. I keep crying every night. Well not just that... My mom adds the pressure. She's like always criticizing me and it did hurt me so bad. That's why I'm like this.. this person that I don't even know.. This person who doesn't even know how to believe in herself and even though my dad keeps telling me I'm beautiful I never believe him because I know deep inside myself that I'm ugly as a monster.
I wanted to change this attitude towards myself because it's not helping me at all. It's destroying me. I get to only live once and I don't wanna waste this chance. It's really really hard to change and I definitely need your help. Can you help me recover? Let's help each other... Please I really need this so bad..