What's wrong with me?!?!
by Kaylin Arnold
I'm thirteen years old and in the eighth grade. I'm really tall; 5'8", so you would think that I should weigh more because I'm pretty tall. But that's not the case. I weigh 113 pounds. I don't know how. Scratch that. I do know how; I don't eat enough. For breakfast I usually have two pieces of toast with peanut butter or butter on them, most of the time I only eat lunch two or three times a school week, and then whatever my mom makes for dinner. Bottom line, I need to eat more. The thing is, I'm never hungry. I just... I don't even know. I'm just never hungry.
Everytime I get up from lying down, my vision goes completely black except sometimes I can focus on one object. I think this is from me not eating enough, but I'm not entirely sure. I know that I should be eating more, but... I think... ugh... I think I'm getting fat... yeah, I know, I'm not at 113 pounds, but when I look in the mirror, I see those stupid lovehandles or whatever just above my hips which are also getting wider along with my torso. My belly is getting bigger and in theatre, someone asked me if I was pregnant. I don't know what to do anymore. I haven't told anyone about this because I know my mom will find out and make me eat tons more and send me to counseling. That's just how she is. Then I'll be fat. Ugh.
What's wrong with me? Do I possibly have an eating disorder? I've looked up a few of them and none seem to fit the description of what's going on with me. If you think you might know, please tell me!