Some guys are just jerks no matter how hard we try...
by Alex M.
(Riverside, Rubidoux, Ca)
"I love you." I said. "No you don't." She said. I really didn't. I did care about her though. I am probably the nicest guy, really, I am. The thing about us guys is that we NEED Sex. It's a way of life for us.
I can honestly say that I am a one woman man. I don't see myself having sex with all these women. I just look forward to finding that one special girl that I can say she is my everything and that I love her because of the way she makes me feel. Not just sexually but emotionally.
I've only had three relationships:
1.) I was a Junior in High School. She was my neighbor. We went to different High Schools. One night she just called me up at 3am. confessed she really liked me, I really didnt feel nothing for her but thought it'd be cool to finally have a girlfriend. almost a year into my first relationship ever, she was deeply in love with me, she said I love you, I said it back... but not truthfully. I wasn't trying to be a jerk, I just cared about her (Maybe I should've just told her that?). almost one year into our relationship she still would'nt let me tap that! and quite frankly, I was loosing interest in her, I could'nt just be satisfied with just a butt grab and kissing. I felt I was ready for more, but she was not. So I just had to break her heart... I wasn't trying to be a jerk.
2.)My second Relationship was my senior year. This girl introduced me to her sister because I told her I thought her sister was cute. So one day she comes up to me and just started hanging out at my kikit spot. we only went out for like 2 weeks and then I broke up with her, She was not my type, then again, I didn't know what was my type back then.
3.) I finally loose my virginity at age 18 with this girl. Met her at work. Never thought I'd hook up with her but she was cute. My longest relationship ever.
Although I broke up with this girl because I just didn't love her anymore I still cried for her and wanted to get back with her but I knew I couldn't play games with her heart. It was just the Sex i missed.I realized, I wasn't in love with her, I was in love with the sex with her. Please understand, I wasn't trying to be a jerk.
Ladies, it's our nature. But I am a believer that there is a girl out there that I can be happy with even without sex... I just hope I meet her soon.
I been single for one year now, no sex, no love, only focusing on my future.