No Tears. No Cry.
by Bee <3
Im Almost Happy :D
My name is Bee. Well, actually it's Briony but I don't really like my name.
Well, if I'm going to tell you my story, get ready to not feel exactly peaceful during it.
I've always had a wonderful family. It was fantastic and we were all so close. They loved me through everything i went through and they stuck by me when no one else would. And no one else ever did.
There was a problem though - they were ALL i had.
Try being an 8 year old girl with no friends to play dolls with, being covered in warts, having red hair, had been abused in your life... and worst of all, being obese. Not fun.
I come from a poor home. My mum once made my clothes out of bed sheets we were THAT poor. So she was out working till the late, LATE afternoon, then coming home and being really tired. I don't blame her for anything. She was trying to do what was the BEST thing for us. And it was, because now, we're neither poor, nor rich. We're humbly in the middle, or middle class as some call it.
So, in other words, i didn't want to add anything extra on her shoulders. But i know she heard me crying and i know she saw the unbelievable pain in my eyes.
This carried on for almost four/five years. By the time i was 11, i wanted to die. I didn't think people who felt what i did really needed to live so i had matured and lost my innocence so much that i wanted to go. It was pointless being in so much pain.
I was wrong.
My pain was necessary because it made me beyond strong. Im such a strong person now and it's all because i went through that pain and all those years of loneliness.
I always had my words and my voice though. I'm a singer/poet and i have always used that to calm me down.
When i turned twelve i decided i was unhappy with the life i was living. So, i did what i had only ever dreamed of doing because i was so scared that i'd ruin everything. I changed my life and the way i lived it.
I lost 15 kg that year.
Now, i'm 15, i have an AMAZING group of friends and now all i worry about is school work and boy troubles, haha. I often get depressing thoughts or feel down but it comes with the life i've led to date.
Thank you for reading.
Never Give Up!
<3 Bee xoxo