My (Long) Story

by Helena
(Canada)

It started out as biting myself. I'm not sure why, but whatever. I craved the pain.

Well, I didn't check my phone messages the night before and I didn't know my Grandfather was coming to drop some things off. (The one day I DON'T catch the messages). So, it being my summer break), I stayed up super late and slept in really late! My grandmother had to drive all the way from downtown ( 30 minute drive) from where she works to unlock the door. My grandma comes up to my room and started shaking me awake. She started yelling at me, telling me I needed to not be so stupid and get to bed on time. I went downstairs and my Grandfather starts LECTURING me starting with "Why would you do something so stupid?"

After that, I was on the brink of tears. He left and I went inside, biting and biting my arm but it didn't feel like enough. On an impulse, I went into my mothers room and pulled out a clean razor from one of the boxes. She uses them for taking off thick dead skin on her feet... nasty. Anyways it was new and un opened so I cut myself a few times. Only 2 cuts.

But after that I cut more and more. I did it for a week leaving 14 scars on my arm. I quit after that week, knowing it could become a bad addiction. But now, every time I feel depressed, the arm I cut on aches and feels weird. It's the weirdest urge ever.

Well ya, that's my story.

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Glad for you
by: cassandra

Well, i'm glad to hear that you were able to stop after that week before it got to being an addiction.. I can tell you from first-hand experience, that it's REALLY hard to stop once it gets to that point. I cut, or used to anyway (haven't cut in almost 3 months). Anyway...I'm really glad you're completely free of it!

Congrats!
by: Prayer

That's great that you stopped. If you start again, just remember how bad that felt. I've slept in before, no one yelled at me though. But, people have yelled at me for other reasons. Every time they do it feels like my stomach is tightening so hard, then bursts, and that's when I cry. I hate it, so I know how you feel. Well, keep writing.

-Prayer

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