To break up or not to break up...?
my name is Denise. I'm 17 years old, almost 18. I just really need someone to talk to and give me advice, because I've never gone through this before, and there is no one else I can turn to. Mine isn't really a break up story...well, not yet anyway. I recently got into a relationship with a boy at school. I don't normally get into relationships..actually I can safely say that this is my first real relationship with a boy.
After reading the "Mirror Mirror" book, and also getting information from other sources, I'm starting to feel like getting into this was a serious mistake. There are many reasons why I feel this way but I'd say that the first is that it's really mixed up my relationship with God. I mean, before, I'd wake up and the first thing I'd think about would be reading my Bible or talking to God. But ever since things started getting serious between this guy and myself, things have changed. I think I've compromised on a lot of things...
I already really care about this guy, I really really do...but what's the point in giving our hearts to each other? We've talked about it once before, and we both know that our relationship is getting serious. We're also both really scared of the heart break that we will go through IF we break up. The closer we get, the harder it will be if we break up right?
It's just so unbelievably hard...I really have no idea what to do...this whole business really frightens me, but at the same time, I've never experienced all these wonderful "mushy gushy" feelings before so it's kind of exciting. I don't know if I should end it...and if so...HOW?? I really don't want to be the one to hurt him. In fact, I'd rather he breaks up with me than I break up with him.
Please help me...?