Our biggest fight.

by Nyssa
(Florida)

I've been dating the same guy for 2 years. And for 2 years we've only had serious fights over one thing. Me. I'm not fat - I only weigh 108 lbs. I'm not too tall, or too short, I'm 5 foot 3. But I constantly feel unattractive. I have acne that just won't go away. I feel like my eyebrows are too bushy, no matter how much I pluck. My cheeks are too chubby. My teeth aren't straight enough, or white enough. And my eyes are too small. Not to mention my frizzy, curly, disobedient boring brown hair. I'm still an A cup, which leads to people constantly commenting on my "lack" of a feminine figure, even though with my 22 inch waist I technically am an hour class. Despite my thin figure, I still manage to have too wide hips and excess fat around my thighs - probably due to the fact that I rarely have time to study with my tough academic schedule. And yet my boyfriend has never once admitted that I am less than perfect. It's always, "You're gorgeous, and thin, and beautiful, and I love you. Why don't you believe me?" And I'm not fishing for compliments like most girls my age (I'm 17). In middle school I was horribly unpopular. Girls made fun of me, told me a I looked like a boy etc. And guys used to ask me out on dares and then laugh with their friends about it later. I guess I just never got over that, because no matter how many times I remind myself that he thinks I'm beautiful, and that God thinks I'm beautiful, all I can hear is the laughter of my 8th grade class as I realize that I will never consider myself beautiful.