No one felt like I did

by Vivienne
(Sydney, NSW, Austraila )

This is a story about a little girl who was teased continually at school.

I have blonde hair and blue eyes, average height and love sport.

I can say by the end of School I had been bullied by a different person every year of my life. Some were subtle, excluding and talking behind my back. Some were very violent, throwing rocks and pushing into walls. I had been bullied by boys and girls, younger and older.

The one that impacted the most was in kinder and year 1. She was so cruel this relationship hurt me a lot.

My past had held me back for so long and I thought there must have been something wrong with me. I tried to find my security in relationships with close friends an intimate relationship but eventually I broke it off because it didn't just fix the problem. I wanted to be loved deeply but I still felt alone, even in a crowded room with all my closest friends, and boy friend of one year. That feeling of broken emptiness was strangling my heart.

At this point after a week of crying and losing sleep, just fell on my knees and prayed to God to take this hurt and brokenness out of my life.
God challenged me that night he told me to break up with my boyfriend, I couldn't believe my ears. So the next day I broke up with him. Lost, hopeless and alone.

I felt my heart had been smashed into tiny pieces and it was impossible to put together again.

I cried for one week straight, my skin was all wrinklie from all the tears. I remember saying to God what do I do now? And the answer came after a few days when I was completely exhausted “Be patient”.

Unfortunately my story does not end there with marriage and kids. It's been 3 years since then and God is still telling me to be patient. Of course I wish to be married but God has other plans. He is teaching me so many new things, and giving me some fantastic opportunities.

One in particular is to share my story with my girls in a study group as a youth group leader. I want them to know that they are not alone and that. If they are willing God is willing. I can say that listening to God changed my life he filled that hole and that Joshua 1:9 is true… God is with you where ever you go......

I and those times when I do still feel insecure, God shows me something amazing and I know I am truly loved fully and completely.

P.S I am best friends with the girl I was bullied by in kinder, and have been for 8 years!

God is amazing............... what more can I say! Nothing is impossible for him.

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Praise the Lord, Hallelujah!
by: Sarah

Dear Vivienne,

Praise God! God is so wonderful isn't He? Your testimony is an amazing one, and I can tell that God is using you to reach out to touch others' lives. When we are broken before the Lord, we are able to be closest to Him and hear from Him and I believe that is exactly what you experienced when you fell on your knees and cried out to the Lord. Don't ever forget that moment and don't ever forget what God has done in your life. He doesn't waste any experiences, and you are who you are today because that is who He created you to be. So continue to use your testimony and your experiences to encourage and impact other lives, because that is who God has created you to be.

Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

Our God is a God of miracles. And I believe that if we continue to trust in Him and He will make our paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

When you seek God with all your heart, He will grant you the desires of your heart. And I believe that God is just preparing you for the man He has already chosen and set aside for you. So continue to trust in Him and not be anxious. His time is always perfect and He will not disappoint you.

Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Romans 5:5
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Thank you for sharing your story!

In Christ,
Sarah

Wont he do it
by: Anonymous

WOW! Your story is amazing. I know that God is so wonderful that he can do it all! Look at God. Your story blessed me!

God Bless you Love!

Amber E.

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