My views, and an inner struggle

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My views, and an inner struggle

by Alex
(Ohio)

I am a bisexual teen girl out since last year. It's difficult because I have always been close to God and was raised in the Catholic religion. I don't like all the rules about homosexuality and lust. I like being open and not limited. But I hate feeling like I am betraying God and I hate not feeling close to him at all. I am in a healthy relationship with a boy and not a girl. But I can't deny past things I have done. To me saying sorry for your sins, means giving up doing it ever again, or at least trying not to.
I grew up never ever knowing that homosexuality was wrong.

This is a part of me and it's something I wouldn't want to give up.

Thinking about this makes me feel more lost and ashamed. Is it okay to go on, or should I be trying to say I'm sorry for being Bisexual?

For anyone else out there, you have my thoughts and support. I completely agree that we should not ridicule these people of God!

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by: Shelley

Alex,
I wish I could tell you exactly what to do, but this is something you will need to wrestle out between you and God. You've read my article, so you know that homosexuality is something that separates us from God. Now, it's up to you to decide what steps to take.

Realize that if you decide to take the step of repentance, that you will still struggle at times with the temptation. Remember that it's not the temptation that's wrong, but what you do with it. Also, realize that it won't be easy. Some days you may feel like you're taking two steps forward and then one step back.

Before you really make a decision on what to do, would you be willing to go through the study I recommended called the Door of Hope? At least see what they have to say and then decide?

I want you to know that I prayed for you tonight. This isn't an easy thing to go through! I prayed that God would give you wisdom and help you struggle through this with Him. He is here for you and wants to help you.

Thanks for sharing this struggle with us,
Shelley

Inner Struggles
by: Julie

Alex,
Thank you for sharing. I?m praying for you about this, but I will echo Shelley?s thoughts and say that each of us must decide what we let form our identities. Sometimes, it?s hard when you have had your identity so wrapped up in something so long to want to change anything, perhaps because the thought of living without that security is scary. I believe that if we truly desire to follow Jesus, we eventually will have to shed off ?our old selves? and die to our old ways to be reborn in Christ. In all our lives, there are things that have defined us for a long time, but some of them may not fall in line with the truth about how God wants us to live. I feel that you will really have to consider what?s in your heart and if God is speaking to you to repent of anything.

I have had a hard time in my own life of letting go of a lot of internal and external beliefs and behaviors that I never knew was keeping me at a distance from God. Romans 6:22 says ?But now you are free from the power of sin and have become slaves of God. Now you do those things that lead to holiness and result in eternal life.? Remember that this is what God desires for our lives. To willingly give over everything to Him, not just that which is easy. It may be a process but He gives us grace so it?s possible.

Thank you for sharing and keep looking to Him for strength,
Julie

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Alex, Thank you for sharing. I?m praying for you about this, but I will echo Shelley?s thoughts and say that each of us must decide what we let form our identities. Sometimes, it?s hard when you have had your identity so wrapped up in something so long to want to change anything, perhaps because the thought of living without that security is scary. I believe that if we truly desire to follow Jesus, we eventually will have to shed off ?our old selves? and die to our old ways to be reborn in Christ. In all our lives, there are things that have defined us for a long time, but some of them may not fall in line with the truth about how God wants us to live. I feel that you will really have to consider what?s in your heart and if God is speaking to you to repent of anything. I have had a hard time in my own life of letting go of a lot of internal and external beliefs and behaviors that I never knew was keeping me at a distance from God. Romans 6:22 says ?But now you are free from the power of sin and have become slaves of God. Now you do those things that lead to holiness and result in eternal life.? Remember that this is what God desires for our lives. To willingly give over everything to Him, not just that which is easy. It may be a process but He gives us grace so it?s possible. Thank you for sharing and keep looking to Him for strength, Julie

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