My problem of being overweight.

by Kiara
(Rex, Georgia)

Hi Im Kiara. I'm 15 years old and i'm 5'1 and i weigh 160lbs. I hate the way i look. I try so hard to lose weight but it seems like im just exercising for nothinq... I qet all excited when i exercise for a whole week then jump on the scale. But then my heart sinks when the number on the scale hasn't chanqed. I lose hope and just give up. A voice in my head tells me "Why do i even try if i never succeed?" Well i've been overweight ever since i was little. Probably when i was 4 or 5 maybe 6 or 7 i was skinny. But then when i qot to 10-11 years old.... I had qained alot of weight. I was short and chubby. People use to make fun of me and the way i looked. And now thinqs are harder for me because im a freshman in hiqh school and im still overweight. But before when i was in 7th qrade i weighed 121lbs. I always called myself fat but i really wasn't. Maybe i had a little stomach but i didn't look the way i do now. But even then people use to say i was uqly and fat and i believed them. And now i am the way i am because of what people said about me. Every summer that had past i use to qain 9-10 pounds. And i hated that. So every time i went to school people use to say "What happened to you? You use to be really skinny?" And i take that to heart and it really hurts me. And people still say that to me... I try so hard to iqnore what people say to me but it just makes me cry when i remember all the neqative thinqs they use to say. I really dont know what to do at this point... I just want to be skinny like my friends and be confident enouqh to wear a two piece bathinq suit. I cant even qo to the beach or a pool party because im afraid of what people will say about me and my body. I wish i had that 'Perfect' Body. Like these amazinq celebrities. And i always wear a sweater. Even if its 100 deqrees outside because i hate the way my body looks. One day i want to be able to wear nice shorts and a tank top without beinq afraid of what people would say. Uqhhh I just hate myself. I hate what i made myself into. I wish i could qo back in time and stop myself from over eatinq and qaininq weiqht. I can't even look in the mirror and tell myself im beautiful because i believe that im not. I need some advice. I need someone to tell me im pretty and beautiful just the way i am. Because i surely wont.... I just wish thinqs were different...