lonely and depressed
Okay, I'm feeeling very lonely and depressed. I really want a boyfriend, and i've been praying for one for the past couple years. I've only had one relationship in my young life, with a boy that i thought was a good Christian but he only used God to get what he wanted from girls, which i figured him out though.
So i was fine for the past couple years even though i'd pray for a boyfriend every once and a while, i waited. but now honestly and truly im lonely, i do want a boyfriend, im not goan to even lie that i really want a boyfriend, everything has failed when it came to guys in my life. Either it didnt work because they didnt like me, they liked my friends, or it just didnt work,and i've had my heart broken and dreams crushed multiple times. I feel as if somethings wrong with me.
I dont know whats wrong with me. What make me ugly or what makes my friend prettier than me, or what makes me not interested in the guys that like me. I pray for a good boy to come along that i can spend time with, that would be their for me , and support me when im not feeling so confident. I"m at a time in my life where i want that affection , as bad as it may sound, I do pray, i really do, and i pray for happiness, but i get so lonely, its gotten to the point that i cry everyday now, its has become a suffering now. I pray and cry everyday, and i feel okay,then i start feeling depressed again. I mean i have a awesome family and some good friends, and i have jesus and God ,but i want a boyfriend, and i pray for one, and feel as if my motives are good, i told God how i felt and everything, but i know he understands what im going through and that he feels my pain,but what good is to come from my suffering like this. I dont need a man to tell me who i am, but then we were made this way. Adam and Eve are proof that we were ,but im praying ,and trying to keep the faith but im absolutely miserable