(Acapulco, MX )
Well, I´m not really doing this becuase I am working more on my looks. I have never been the person to go and buy make up or getting what is in. My parents can´t really afford to buy anything right now. I just really want to get close to God. I feel very far away from him. It´s like, whenever I pray, I feel like he never listens to me. I don´t know if he is there for me, waiting with open arms to catch me when I fall down. And that´s how I feel. I am sick of feeling this way. I´ve been so depressed, no one has actually noticed, but when I am depressed I eat alot of junk food. Mostly chocolate. And I don´t want to do that anymore. I need a change in my life, something that will open my eyes and see new things. I just need help. I need to get close to God. I can´t stand my life anymore. One thing about me, is that, I am a 15 year old worship leader. My family and I are missionaries in Mexico, and a lot of my life has changed. I have not christian friends, they´re all catholic. I don´t know what to do, oh and, I the only one in my worship group, and I feel, like I don´t deserve to be in the front singing. I don´t do it to be famous, I mostly do it to make my parents happy. It´s hard for me to feel, God´s presence. I feel horrible up there. It´s hard being alone. I would go to my parents for advice, but they don´t understand me. I am a teenager, they´re adults. They don´t know what I feel, right now, only God knows, but why doesn´t he listen to me?