Inspired Wondering Soul

by Shaunee
(upon the earth )

So many regrets,
yet not ready to repent!
seen so many scenes,that seem to repeat
so many lies don't know what to believe,
so many days i feel trapped with this disease
never knowing the truth on if it's okay to change what is?
wonder always is this a gift?
so many times i try to deny to myself
but what lies ahead
I'm in need of a whole lot of help!

how to ask,
how to tell,
this soon to be our worldly hell!
always questioning am i seeing
or
am i creating!
am i saving
or
am i killing?

I cannot be myself without knowing who I am.I cannot ask for help in less I know what I am asking for! I couldn't let myself see with out first being blind.and I can't let myself be free with out first being imprisoned by me!
Things always seem harder then they really may be,and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger,...though sometimes it's just hard to find the strength.
I Am ... a searcher, a seer, a believer
I am angry,sad,confused,lost within my thoughts waiting to be found.
I am all who i am and all who i don't wanna be,trapped within me