Im 18 years old, and i have struggled with low self esteem, which led me down hill. I always compared myself to other girls, and always wanting to be as pretty as them. Well my whole high school years i was always doing what others were doing so i would fit in. I was with the in crowd so i thought i had to drink, and all i cared about was looks, and all that led me into the dark. Last summer, i couldnt take it any more. I was pretending to be someone i wasnt and i lost my self through everything. I couldnt even look at my sefl in the mirror. So one summer night i come home and overdose on pills. I tried to comit suicide because i thought i wasnt pretty enough, or skinny enough. In my suicide note i wrote i apologized to my parents for not being skinny or pretty enough. I also said sorry i didnt havea boyfriend i could bring home, i was so caught up and what society puts in our head i lost focus of who i was. I lost focus on God. He should be my number one priority but instead i obssesed over my weight and my looks and boys.
I realized that beauty comes from within. God has blessed each and everyone of us with beauty that comes from with in, and it shines through us when we praise him for that. I want to share my story and give young girls hope, and let them know that ive gone through it and they can get through it..but happiness comes from the Lord, he is the answer to all of our problems. If your reading this and feeling lost , or empty your more than welcome to ask questions and im here if anyone needs advice.
remember beauty comes from the heart <3
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