i feel lonely
i am a 15 year old girl. okay, so i went out with this guy for a year and 4 and a half months. i was completely in love. but i broke up with him because we would fight over stupid things almost everyday. and i got sick of it. we still talked, and even kissed after that. and i thought we were gonna go back out, like we needed a break or something. but then i hung out with some people, and when push came to shove i ended up making out with this guy. and my ex found out. and he got so angry, and he screamed and yelled and said we would never be together again. but i think i did it only to see if i could have that spark with someone else. and there was none with this guy i had made out with. so, then me and my ex sort of worked things out, and talked again. but then i start hearing rumors that he likes this girl. and this specific girl i hated, because in the middle of my relationship with this guy, he kinda cheated on me. and now i was hearing he liked her ? ugh, so called him up and simply asked "do you have feelings for her ?" and he said "i'm not gonna lie, yes." and i just hung up. i was so upset. then about a month after the break up, he starts going out with this girl. and i called him, and we had a big talk and i told him how i was still in love with him and that i missed him, and he told me he wanted me out of his life, that it was over. and i broke down, i couldn't eat, sleep, or even talk to my friends. i even cut myself. it's just, now he's moved on and i still havent. even though i want to so badly. i've tried so hard, but i just can't deep down. and i'm told he hates me, and that just makes it all worse. what do i do ?