A woman's heart should be so lost in Jesus that a man..............

by Angel
(California)

First I'm not a teen girl but I would like to share my story LOL. I am actually a man in my mid twenties

I really liked your Hebrew language analysis about healing the broken hearted and how you compared it to being a health care professional. However, you did not take into account the ancient times definition of a heart. In the Bible the heart is not simply emotions, it is one's very being their everything.

psalm 69:20 Reproach hath broken my heart; and I am full of heaviness: and I looked for some to take pity, but there was none; and for comforters, but I found none.

psalm 109:16 Because that he remembered not to shew mercy, but persecuted the poor and needy man, that he might even slay the broken in heart.

jeremiah 23:9 Mine heart within me is broken because of the prophets; all my bones shake; I am like a drunken man, and like a man whom wine hath overcome, because of the LORD, and because of the words of his holiness.

Here we see that the patriarchs are referring to much more than just their "emotions" but to their complete inner being. An in my culture that is what the heart is, one's all. To love is to give one's all to somebody, not just emotions.

I'm in graduate school an I met a woman that in such short time made me feel something that I once that was lost only to then completely break my entire inner being.

After breaking off an engagement she decided to go back to school. It had been two years since the engagement when we met and she had not been in a serious relationship since. She had committed herself, vowing not to have premarital relations with another man.

She told me that I was the man she had been praying for since then. We did sleep together, but how I used to pray every night for forgiveness because I truly wanted to love this woman with my all the way God intended, so we no longer slept together.

We planned a Godly life together down to the name of the children, a place for the wedding and were we would start our lives together. She told me that God had brought me to her and that what was important in life was starting a Godly family with me. We would pray together and how I would pray that and give thanks for feeling alive again after so many broken hearts. She really was the woman of my dreams. The woman I had been praying for after so many years of unfulfilling relationships and a lifetime of a broken heart.

One day out of nowhere she told me that after days of prayer it had been revealed to her that she did not need to stray from God's path by being in a relationship. She continued with all the cliches "it's not you it's me, we should still be friends etc."

How her leaving has torn my inner being to pieces. We had a class together right afterward and not only were we not friends but she: defriended and blocked me on facebook; no longer answered my calls, text, or emails; and just went out of her way to ignore me even though we had a public speaking class together with only 8 students. She would never look at me or acknowledge me when I tried to talk to her. She would put somebody in between us when I would try to talk to her and start a conversation to ignore me.

Two months after she left me, the last day of class, we were asked our five year plan. She said she hoped to be married to her boyfriend and wanted to have 3-5 children. My thoughts were, "she has a boyfriend? I thought she left me because God revealed to her she did not need to be in a relationship? How could she use the name of God to do such an evil thing to my heart?"

My broken heart, my broken entire being has left me defriended and forgotten food for wild beast to tear apart at because there is no one near.

My only comfort is that Yeshua is the God of the broken. So I will continue "A woman's heart should be so lost in Jesus that a man seek Him to find her." I had known a broken heart before and I had already accepted Yeshua as my salvation from sin, but seeking him further all I found was a broken heart. I know it is because......

2Cor12:9 My power is made strongest in weakness

I live such a blessed life to be able to continue working in my field part time while earning my master's. I have a wonderful family and friends and so much opportunity. How bright my future is guided by the light of Elohim's face, but how broken hearted I am from her leaving me -especially from her completely ignoring me and throwing to the curb like trash and if she really is with somebody else after she said God had revealed to her to leave me basically(how this one truly gnaws at my sanity)- and the heart is my all.

Everyday more and more it eats at my complete inner being. We will graduate soon and we she will be gone forever. The promise of a Godly love, but just another broken heart, a woman that erased me from her live forever as if our love was something you could erase off a paper. Once the woman of your dreams comes around to be with other woman is to settle into something unfulfilling. My comfort is that if I found her more than once I can find her again.

I will leave you with the broken heart of Samson. A man so broken hearted over the woman he loved that...

Judges 15:3 Samson said to them, "This time I have a right to get even with the Philistines; I will really harm them." 4 So he went out and caught three hundred foxes and tied them tail to tail in pairs. He then fastened a torch to every pair of tails, 5 lit the torches and let the foxes loose in the standing grain of the Philistines. He burned up the shocks and standing grain, together with the vineyards and olive groves.

Samson a man so broken hearted that with his last breath...........

Judges 16:28 Then Samson prayed to the LORD, "O Sovereign LORD, remember me. O God, please strengthen me just once more, and let me with one blow get revenge on the Philistines for my two eyes." 29 Then Samson reached toward the two central pillars on which the temple stood. Bracing himself against them, his right hand on the one and his left hand on the other, 30 Samson said, "Let me die with the Philistines!"...

How heart broken I am over losing the love of my life.